| the other day i was at baystreet looking for parking in the crowded lot. as i drove around, i saw a tall black fairly skinny lady in her cute outfit and matching 4 in heels pushing her double stroller. i proceeded to follow her to get her parking spot. she stopped at her car. carefully took each of her twin baby girls out and buckled them in their carseats. i waited patiently as i thought about those days when the boys had to be tucked in each time. now, i push unlock and they open the car door and jump in. then she walked over to the double stroller and started to take her shopping and baby 'stuff' out (h&m bag, old navy, baby bottle, diaperbag, extra sweaters for the babies). after she threw it all in the trunk of the car, she unlocked the stroller in attempt to collapse it. just as she pushed the stroller together, she stopped what she was doing and pulled up the back of her perfectly fit jeans. then she bent over and picked up the stroller. now i know about these double strollers, if anything, they are NOT easy to operate nor are they light. at least they weren't 5 years ago. standing upright again, she pulled up the back of her jeans again. she dragged the HEAVY double stroller up to the trunk, closed the door and pulled up the back of her jeans again. right there. i nearly cried. ok. so i kinda teared. retarded i know. maybe you'll understand when you ladies find yourself doing that one day. i don't know what it is. is it that some post pregant bodies are never the same anymore? cuz mine sure isn't. or does that happen to most people who bend over and have muffintop? cuz she didn't have a muffin top. either way, somewhere in this world, people understand what it's like to be mom and still be able to wear the hott pants and cute shoes AND have to pull up their pants in the middle of EVERYTHING that they do. most importantly, to see her do exactly what i did/do made me feel human again. friends around me don't have kids. so while i still get the 'i'm in love'glow when i talk or even THINK about coby and ean, i try to keep it to a minimum since i don't want to bore anyone. nor do i think they can relate to my struggles or excitedness (excited is an understatement, really). but the boys started kindergarten a little over a month ago. and it's been the best 'thing' that's happened for me and the boys. i can't explain it. they're just my best friends forever. so every morning i park my car, walk the boys to their designated line. i'm the only lady that runs back and forth to try to time it right so that i can walk each of them to their classroom and give them their 'do you feel great? i'm really proud of you' peptalk. (their teacher come at different times and their classrooms aren't next to each other so i try to walk one to their room and run out to walk the other in before the line goes in without me). so in the morning, we stand in line with other kids and parents. coby and ean go to cleveland. and the majority of the school parents aren't english speaking. some sort of chinese, mostly. so i stand there and i hear the parents speaking to their kids in broken english. they speak to them in english because they know it's good for the kids. not because it's easier for them. and the best part is the parents say 'i love you'. for me to see asian families going out of their comfort zone and showing affection makes me feel human. i'm not the only one with the 'i'minlove'glow. ...being a single mother to growing boys is definately becoming a bigger and bigger struggle. maybe i should rephrase. being a growing boy to a single mother is becoming a bigger and bigger struggle. i dont' know how mommies do it. and although i was raised by a single mother, i still. i still don't know how kids do it. i was told 'love is everything'. we definately got that. so we'll see how far that takes us.... 
aug04 first day at beatie street 
aug07 first day at cleveland elementary DAHHHHH!!!!! my boys!!! i'm gonna post some summer pictures in a bit. we had a fun summer. |
